She was jealous of most things that I achieved or if I went anywhere her reaction was always, “ you didn’t ask me, or you never ask me to go anywhere, or all the other mothers I know - their kids always take them places with them”. I was never good enough, she always found fault with me: too fat, too forgetful, a liar, a sneak, etc. she was rarely happy - really. She would complain to my cousins, aunts, friends of the things I did that she didn’t like. She always, always reminded me of everything she ever did for me or gave me - or my kids. She alienated all her sisters & brothers also, by being with them as she was with me. She was jealous of my love for my father, whom she didn’t like one little bit. I could go on, but that’s enough. I’m in my 70’s and I’m still looking for affirmation from others as I did with my mother. But...... I’ve also worked on myself thru A.A. And a psychologist for years. I’m sad that she was so sad all her life
She was jealous of most things that I achieved or if I went anywhere her reaction was always, “ you didn’t ask me, or you never ask me to go anywhere, or all the other mothers I know - their kids always take them places with them”. I was never good enough, she always found fault with me: too fat, too forgetful, a liar, a sneak, etc. she was rarely happy - really. She would complain to my cousins, aunts, friends of the things I did that she didn’t like. She always, always reminded me of everything she ever did for me or gave me - or my kids. She alienated all her sisters & brothers also, by being with them as she was with me. She was jealous of my love for my father, whom she didn’t like one little bit. I could go on, but that’s enough. I’m in my 70’s and I’m still looking for affirmation from others as I did with my mother. But...... I’ve also worked on myself thru A.A. And a psychologist for years. I’m sad that she was so sad all her life
We mourn our childhood that they killed. Stay tuned for my next memory. You might find it helpful. 😊😇